Believe Thyself III- Trials and Triumphs

The dream is free but the hustle is sold separately…

I snickered at the painful truth of this statement when I read it on my friend’s status.

Dreaming is as easy as breathing. It is easier to talk and plan a goal but the real struggle lies in its execution.

I have wanted nothing more in this life than to be a Physician. It didn’t matter where, I just needed the opportunity to present itself. Now, I am staring at the precipice of the realization of this dream… and it is daunting. In hindsight, it’s clear I overestimated my abilities and underestimated the effort required to excel. Like Maggie said, ”The dream is free, but the hustle is sold separately.”

Currently, classical me begins to procrastinate by planning to study, religiously ticking every daily task and checking every detail. The closer I approach my exam date, the more I begin to believe that I am not qualified enough, I haven’t prepared enough, I am not ready… I am not worthy.

Soon enough, doubt and anxiety creeps in… fear quickly rears its ugly head and I begin to panic.

Life is far too complex and uncertain for my little mind.

Nonetheless, I choose to believe in the promises of the Lord; good plans that are not to harm me, but to give me hope and a future. Plans to make me the head and not the tail, plans to bless the works of my hands… so I pick myself up from the tornado of negative thoughts that constantly plague my mind. Then, I hold on to His wonderful promises for me, as I continue to tick every daily task, answer every practice question, and continually seek His presence.

I may see this exam as an insurmountable trial, but the Lord sees it as a triumphant manifestation of His Glory in my life.

The trials we face in our lives are not meant to harm us, but they are present to refine our character so we are worthy of the triumph. 

Till we meet again,

Keep the crowns upright, 

And your trials triumphant